scythe_lucifer | (no subject)

yeah it's

[ It's not great. But it's not the worst thing he's ever done. So, ultimately, he can write it off.

Maybe. At least pretend to. ]

it is what it is at this point, I guess. nothing I can do to change it. just gotta move forward.

Yeah.
I just wanted to be sure.

Do you need anything?

[ Does he? He wouldn't mind a cup of tea right now, but by the same token, having any amount of attention on his feelings, especially his true feelings, leaves him feeling awkward and out of sorts. ]

I'm okay.

Thank you.

For checking in and for the offer.

[ She would happily make him a cup of tea and find a distraction for him so they don't have to focus on feelings. ]

Good.

[ Time to change the subject. ]

Did you come up with any questions for me?

haha

yeah, sure.

I guess obvious one first: why are you pink? Are all the gods different colors?

I'm not sure why I'm pink. But, yes, all of the gods are different colors.
Same for nymphs, centaurs, satyrs, and the likes.
Mortals are the exception.

Hm. Interesting. I don't suppose you can change color like you can change into a butterfly?

I can, though I'm not very practiced with disguising myself as a mortal.

Oh, seriously? You should try. When you say disguising, can you change what you look like besides color? That could be useful.

Hell, not being bright pink when you do something and then turning pink again later can be useful too.

In theory. I've never tried to make myself look different. I think it would probably work more along the lines of me turning into someone else.

I suppose it could be.

That's interesting. Like you could turn into me or into a guard or something.

That's something I wish I could do.

Maybe? I've never tried it before, so I can't say for sure.
And as you saw when I turned into a butterfly, I have difficulty with clothing.

Why do you wish you could do that?

Yeah but we could just get you other clothes.

I don't know.

Haven't you ever wanted to be someone else? Just for a little while.

True.

Once. But it was only during that moment.

Sometimes I want that. To be someone else. To ditch what I've got for a little while. That's why I think it would be cool.

Isn't being here a chance at that?
You can be anyone you want and no one here would know otherwise.

Unless someone from home shows up.

And I've already spilled the beans on how my world works so it's not like I can pretend that.

I'm not good at faking it.

True...

Well, you can still try to change who you are. Make choices you wouldn't normally. I know it's not quite the same.

No but maybe?

I'm already forced to make choices in situations I never thought I'd face so

maybe we'll just find out if I've got another side to me.

Being thrown outside of your comfort zone will certainly lead to that.

I know I've discovered a few things about myself since I've been away from home. And I feel like I'm discovering something new every day.

It's true.

[ Not that this is his first time severely out of his comfort zone, but he's hopeful that this is a different kind of hell than Goddard's house. ]

Like what have you discovered? Or is that too much?

Maybe you could find out if you're that interested.
But I get the feeling you aren't.

[ It honestly takes him a second. ]

I'm interested in you.

but if you mean Interested like the other way

[ He hasn't thought about her that way. She's beautiful, yes, and when she said that thing to him over the network, his brain had short circuited at the thought. But it's confusing and he thinks he's supposed to be respectful, not instantly attracted to every person he meets. ]

I'm not not I'm just slow

[ Her response is a little delayed as she tries to make sense of what he means. Interested but not not interested?

She figured he wasn't. ]

Oh.
I don't think taking it slow works in this place.

[ She's probably still misunderstanding something. ]

[ It's becoming apparent over the short time that he's here that Rowan is really quite bad at texting. ]

I know. I get that they don't want us to. to be slow, to take things slow. and it's been backfiring on me.