scythe_lucifer | (no subject)

[ It's becoming apparent over the short time that he's here that Rowan is really quite bad at texting. ]

I know. I get that they don't want us to. to be slow, to take things slow. and it's been backfiring on me.

Going slow is backfiring?
I don't think I understand.

[ Maybe they need to be talking on the phone like normal people instead of texting. ]

I don't want to have sex with everyone I meet, you know?

And then I keep getting into these positions where I do. Aphros or drinks or whatever.

My plan to go slow and get to know people and THEN MAYBE have sex with them is .. you're right, not backfiring. Just up in flames.

I don't either.
But I've kind of learned I have to look at anyone I would normally be interested in like that.
That is also a Submissive.
Not that it matters in the end.

[ Okay, sense made of that now. ]

When you have to meet quota, taking it slow isn't really an option and the city makes sure you know that.
I mean, maybe after you've been here a while you can take your time with new people, but at the start that's impossible.

[ At least it had been for her. ]

I wanted it to be my first little rebellion. don't hit quota, fuck their rules. before I took a dominant too so they wouldn't get in trouble for it.

I'm trying to do it backwards with a couple of people. we've had sex but now we can talk. but we keep having sex too not necessarily because we're just in the mood and I'm.

I guess I just get tired.

So you wanted to get drugged by the city?

Must be nice to have people like that.

want to get drugged? no. want to say I won't go along easily or willingly? yes. and I'd accept the consequences.

I know it doesn't sound very different but I like to think it is.

That's dumb.

I can count the number of men that I've been with that still speak to me after on one hand. I guess the experience was terrible.

thanks.

[ He's not hurt by the statement though, not really. He knows it's dumb. ]

that's harsh. I mean I almost didn't speak to them after the fact because I was ashamed.

I think at least half of them didn't have any shame.

[ She knows for a fact one of them doesn't. But he also has a girlfriend so why would he ever need anyone else? ]

Maybe some others vanished like my submissives did.

maybe.

that would figure. lies and eator and whoever not wanting you to be happy. or whatever comes close to it around here.

Plenty of people are happy.
In love.
Getting married.
All of that.

It just seems there are very few that want me as a person.
Which I guess is fine as long as I make quota and stay out of trouble.

yeah I'm not

[ Well, he shouldn't talk shit about people he doesn't know. He's learned that lesson. ]

that's all anyone can really do. stay out of trouble and see what happens.

Sorry. This got really negative.

If you want to complain about something I'm all ears. Eyes?

It's okay. I mean I get it. things are tough here and we all have our moments. I'm just

I get angry. but I like to do something with that. like work out and hit things. punching bags, not walls or anything. I don't like to talk about stuff like that.

I try not to let it get to me. You know, stay too busy to think? I guess I'm not busy enough.

That does sound like a good way to burn off some energy. Have you ever thought about checking out the Arena? They do physical training during the day, but at night there are fights.

I've been there during the day, but I haven't hit up the nights yet. Working at a bar cramps the nighttime style.

Ah. I suppose we've missed each other then.
I usually stop in to give my coworkers some treats in the mornings.

I've only been to one fight and it was... Let's just say it was very much in the theme of this city.

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Oh yeah, I sleep in. I'm more of an afternoon fighter.

On theme like...
there were aphros??

There was for one of the fights. It was one of the potential handicaps for a kind of group fight.

But there was also one fight in which the winner would take the loser right there on the mat.

That was during my first month here so it was kind of shocking to see. Even more shocking when my name was called because someone put it in for a fight.

[ Now she'd probably participate willingly instead of having had her name pulled because someone thought it'd be funny to put her name in the hat. Even though she still can't fight. ]

that's awful. on every point.

I mean I get getting tired of being constantly vigilant about what you eat or drink and needing relief but

I wouldn't want to do things that way

[ He thinks. But he has yet to go to the Arena at night. He's yet to be here for very long at all, really. ]

I don't think the fights are always like that.
I think it was a special night.
Like the special parties we have at the Clockhouse.

It makes sense you know that Oswald owns both locations.

oh

[ That's... kind of a turn off, truth be told. He's not going to avoid the Arena for workouts and such now, but he'll definitely be careful if he goes to the nighttime events. Just like he's going to be way more careful about the Clockhouse. ]

that's good to know.

Just make sure you don't go on a themed night if you want normal fights.
Same with the Clockhouse if you just want a normal night of drinks and treats.

yeah I learned that about the Clockhouse the hard way.

but I'll keep that in mind too about the Arena now, thanks.